The Girl Who Hates Unfairness

Hey reader I am back with another poem for you. I hope it resonates with you in some way or the other. Cheers 🥂

She’s not a saint.

She’s not some savior cloaked in glory.

She’s a girl—raw, bleeding, tired—

but relentless.

Life broke its promises early.

It handed out abundance to the loud,

the cruel, the stars-aligned,

while the soft-spoken were left with nothing,

hands empty, hearts full of questions.

She noticed.

And noticing became her curse.

Whenever she saw someone rejected,

someone folded into the margins of existence,

she couldn’t stop herself.

She gave them her time, her respect,

sometimes her heart,

always her peace.

She didn’t love them.

She didn’t dream of forever.

She just wanted to smooth the edges

of their jagged lives,

to make them feel seen

for once.

It didn’t matter if it wrecked her.

It didn’t matter if she lost herself,

which she always did.

She hated the abnormalities,

the way the world chose its favorites

and left the rest to rot.

She hated it so much,

she made it her mission to fix the unfixable,

to glue the shattered pieces of other people,

even as her own cracks deepened.

Now she drifts,

a speck in the middle of a vast ocean,

untethered,

asking the only question that matters:

Who will save her?

Let me know how can we save such people. Share your thoughts in the comments section below 👇

What’s Your Pattern?

 

Hey reader! Welcome back to Versebound . I am busy these days in preparing for my entrance examination, so I won't be able to write book reviews for a while. But don't you worry, I have got you. I will keep you entertained with my poetry pieces. 

Let’s play a game:

Close your eyes.

Think of the last time life knocked you down.

Now think of the time before that.

And before that.

See it?

That thread, looping, stitching, binding.

That’s your pattern.

Mine?

Mine is delayed happiness—

A bad joke with no punchline.

First, rejection slices me open,

bleeds me dry.

Then success waltzes in,

fashionably late,

dragging its feet,

apologizing as if I should forgive it

for arriving in pieces.

Does that sound familiar?

Do you feel it too?

The déjà vu of pain,

The clockwork of disappointment,

Like the universe wrote a script

And forgot to edit.

Tell me—

What’s your pattern?

Is it heartbreak on repeat?

Or shadows that follow you into new rooms,

wearing old faces?

And what do we do with this?

These maddening cycles,

these spirals that don’t spiral out,

but back in,

again

and again

and again.

Do we fight it?

Do we break it?

Or do we wear it,

like a second skin,

until we forget it’s even there?

Or maybe—

we take a needle.

Unpick the threads.

Undo the seams.

Watch the fabric fall apart

and weave something new.

But tell me,

and be honest—

Do you really believe we can?

Let me know in the comments section what do you think of it.

Solitude in Green and Red

Hey reader! Thank you for all your love and support on my previous posts. I am here with a new piece for you. This one's especially close to my heart. I am not just giving you a poem here, I am giving you a piece of me.

In the green stillness of my walls,

where red wallpaper shields

the creeping whispers of mold,

I sit, feet cocooned, unseen,

beneath a quilted veil of silence.

Paintings bloom and brood around me—

a bird in flight, fragile with hope,

a rose, blood-rich in petaled joy.

And there, an eagle sharp in shadow,

a woman drowning in her own tears.

Art that breathes, yet remains unsold,

its worth eclipsed by empty echoes

of contact lists I never owned.

God, why did you fold the world away

and leave me

to press my fingers into the void?

But—ah, the quiet revelation:

no daughter tethered to her father’s name,

no wife stitched to a husband's fame.

I am just myself:

a girl who paints her dreams alive,

who carves henna rivers on skin,

whose hair cascades like dark silk,

whose cheeks bloom like spring,

whose smile bends light into meaning.

Loneliness has edges,

but also wings.

It has taught me

to wear my name alone,

not borrowed or inherited,

but painted,

bold,

on the canvas of my own becoming.

Let me know how you find it in the comments section below.

Hollow Years

 

Hey reader! I am back with a new piece of writing for you. Honestly, I don't even know if anyone reads my works at all. But I feel like I am born for this; for writing, sharing what's inside. So I am sharing this piece with hope that some day someone will read, and understand. Cheers🥂

Everyone tied knots early—

threaded gold into their futures,

spun cradles from whispers of love.

She watched from the edges,

her hands empty,

palms worn smooth

from grasping at air.

She tried—

not once, not twice,

but five times—

each story collapsing

like paper boats in a storm.

Still, she built her prayers,

stacked them like bricks,

only to see them crumble,

dust slipping through her fingers.

Now, 27 feels like 57.

Her friends hold babies—

soft, warm lives wrapped in purpose.

Her room holds silence—

sharp, cold,

biting her ankles like winter frost.

She sits alone,

the walls pressing closer,

a pen the only witness

to her unraveling.

Books pile up like barricades—

not to protect, but to contain.

Faith—once a flame,

now a flicker,

a matchstick soaked in rain.

The stars don’t answer,

they just blink,

like spectators to her quiet collapse.

No career, no partner, no foothold.

Just the hum of her pulse

and the echo of unanswered questions:

Why not me?

Why never me?

But still, she writes.

Words sharp as glass,

carving meaning from the void.

Perhaps the world doesn’t need her yet,

or maybe she’s more

than hands longing to hold.

Still, she breathes,

though the air is thin,

though the years feel stolen.

She breathes,

because somewhere, deep within,

there’s a spark too stubborn to die.

Humanity Fails in Gaza: A Call to End the Genocide and Protect Innocence

On November 20, 2024, the world witnesses an unthinkable tragedy in Gaza—a land where children’s laughter is silenced, and innocent lives are crushed under the weight of conflict. As an ordinary citizen of India, I pen this blog with a heavy heart, feeling powerless yet compelled to speak out for my brothers and sisters in Palestine. The ongoing genocide is a collective failure of humanity, and it is time for the world to wake up and take action.

The Cost of Conflict: Innocence Lost

War is never justifiable when its victims are the most vulnerable—children, women, and civilians who have no role in political scheming or territorial disputes. Imagine a newborn baby, unaware of the world’s complexities, losing its chance to experience life. Imagine a child’s fragile body trembling in fear, hungry, thirsty, and robbed of safety. These innocent souls bear the consequences of a conflict they neither caused nor understand.

How can humanity stand by while the innocent pay the price of geopolitical games? No political tension, no historical grievance, no territorial rift can ever justify the murder, rape, or starvation of the innocent.

A Gut-Wrenching Hypocrisy

Even more chilling is the sight of soldiers posing victoriously while wearing the clothes of the murdered, a macabre mockery of human suffering. How does one reconcile with this? I, like many others, struggle to understand. If I, an ordinary individual, feel deep remorse for so much as raising my voice in anger, how do people justify acts of violence on such a grotesque scale?

This is a question that challenges the very fabric of our humanity. Are we so desensitized by power, politics, and propaganda that we fail to see the lives we are destroying?

Why Is the World Silent?

As Gaza bleeds, the global silence is deafening. Governments, including mine, have refrained from taking a firm stand. The world’s most powerful nations, which have the ability to influence change, remain passive or complicit. Meanwhile, ordinary citizens like me share posts on social media, feeling the inadequacy of our efforts.

But words are not enough. Action is needed—urgent, collective, and resolute. Leaders must rise to their responsibility. Global organizations tasked with safeguarding human rights must step up. Sanctions, peace talks, humanitarian aid—whatever it takes to protect those who cannot protect themselves—must be implemented now.

A Plea for Humanity

To anyone in a position of power reading this: Do something. Speak up. Take action. The world cannot afford another day of inaction. Each passing moment costs more lives, deepens trauma, and leaves lasting scars on the collective conscience of humanity.

And to my brothers and sisters in Palestine: I am sorry. The world has failed you. Humanity has failed you. Your suffering is a reminder of how far we are from achieving peace and justice. But please know this—your pain is not unnoticed. Millions of us around the world carry your grief in our hearts, even if we feel powerless to ease it.

A Hope for Peace

Let this be a call for introspection, not just for nations but for individuals. Can we not envision a world where peace prevails over conflict? Where leaders sit at the table to negotiate rather than wage war? Where the laughter of children drowns out the sounds of missiles?

If the world could unite against injustice, if we could prioritize humanity over power, perhaps such a vision could become a reality. Until then, we must keep speaking, sharing, and pushing for change, no matter how small our voices feel.

Final Words

As an ordinary citizen, I may not have the power to change policies or stop wars, but I have the power to care. And so do you. Let us not underestimate the collective strength of our voices. Together, we can demand an end to the genocide in Gaza and advocate for a peaceful resolution.

To the world leaders who can act: Please, for the sake of humanity, do not let this genocide continue.

This blog is not just a piece of writing—it is a cry for action, a plea for peace. Share this with anyone who can amplify this message. Let use our voices to stand up for those who cannot.

How To Become A Happy Person

Are you tired of the constant need to feel superior, perfect, and special? Let’s get real for a second—none of these ego-fueled standards are doing you any good. In fact, these self-imposed standards—whether it’s being beautiful, always acing your studies, or having the "perfect" relationship—are just weighing you down. It’s time to kick the ego out of the picture and start living life as an ordinary human. So, here’s a no-nonsense guide on how to shed those toxic traits and find some real peace.

1. Ditch Those Beauty Standards

You’ve heard it everywhere: to be "superior," you need a perfect nose, flawless hair, and eyes that sparkle like diamonds. But who decided this? Not you. If you keep defining your worth based on these ridiculous standards, you’re setting yourself up for a life of disappointment and unnecessary self-criticism. It’s time to redefine beauty as confidence and self-acceptance, not some plastic idea of perfection. So, let that go. You'll thank yourself later.

2. Top Grades Aren’t the Only Measure of Success

So, maybe you’re a student and you feel like anything less than being a "topper" is a failure. But the truth is, there’s nothing wrong with being an average student. Your self-worth isn’t tied to being the best at everything. Success is personal, and everyone’s path looks different. Embrace your own journey, whether that means scoring high, average, or just finding what makes you happy.

3. Forget the ‘Perfect’ Relationship Fantasy

If you’re in a relationship, you might have been sold this story that it’s only good if it’s filled with constant praise, gifts, and surprises. But real relationships aren’t about showing off. They’re about understanding, support, and being with someone who sees you for who you are, not for some fairy tale ideal. Drop the fantasy, and start appreciating the realness of an imperfect, genuine partnership.

4. Your Ego Is Blocking You from Growth

Here’s the hard truth: if you’ve convinced yourself that you’re somehow above others, you’re holding yourself back. Your ego makes you value your own perspective more than anyone else’s, giving their opinions a measly 20% of your attention while you soak up the other 80%. But what good does that do? Try really listening—no ego involved. You might just learn something.

5. What Does It Mean to Be ‘Normal’?

Let’s redefine "normal" together. A normal human isn’t perfect. They fail, they get criticized, and they aren’t always the best at everything. And you know what? They still shine in their own unique way. There will always be someone who’s better at something than you, but that doesn’t mean you’re any less valuable. Perfection is a myth—embrace your flaws, failures, and the beauty of just being human.

If You’re Struggling, Focus on Building Yourself

When life feels impossible, or if you’re dealing with toxic relationships, mental health issues, or just a lack of direction, start by building yourself up. Take care of your physical and mental health first. This will boost your self-esteem and make you proud of yourself for being resilient, for surviving. Find things you enjoy, no matter how small or silly they might seem. Paint, clean, write, pray—whatever grounds you, make it a habit.

And remember, if you’re in a place where anxiety or panic attacks take over, get professional help. Therapy and the right support can make all the difference. No shame in that—getting help is an act of strength, not weakness.

Find Power in Prayer or Positive Mantras

If you’re a believer, keep reciting prayers—they’re powerful anchors. If not, find a mantra that gives you strength, like "life’s going to be okay." Repeat it until you feel it deep down. Positive reinforcement isn’t magic, but it’s a powerful way to help yourself when things feel chaotic.

Final Thought: Only You Can Save Yourself

Here’s the bottom line: no one else can do the hard work for you. Only you can let go of the ego, reset your mind, and choose to live a life that’s free from these toxic expectations. Save yourself, because you’re worth it.

What Is Your Place in This World?

In today’s fast-paced world, it’s easy to feel lost, to wonder, “What is my place in this world?” This question haunts many of us, especially when life throws unexpected challenges or when we can’t see our own value. But the truth is, every one of us holds a unique place on this Earth, a space that no one else can fill. Allah reminds us of this profound truth in the Quran, asking: “Do you think We have created you purposelessly?” This rhetorical question isn’t meant to cast doubt, but rather to affirm that every human life has a purpose. Our existence is deliberate; we are each part of a larger, divine plan.

Your Existence Has a Purpose

From the very start, it’s essential to understand that we aren’t here by accident. We weren’t created to wander through life aimlessly. Allah’s words assure us that we have a purpose and that our lives are valuable. If you’re feeling adrift, hang on to this thread of hope. Remember that you have been placed here for a reason. You may not see it now, but in time, you’ll discover the role only you can play.

Learning from the Lives of Others

History gives us countless examples of people who didn’t see their worth immediately. Take Thomas Edison, for instance. Known for inventing the light bulb, Edison failed thousands of times before he succeeded. Imagine if he had given up! He may have felt lost or even useless at times, but he pressed on, finding his unique purpose after a long period of struggle. His life teaches us that our “place in this world” might not be obvious right away, but persistence brings purpose to light.

Take Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), who received his first revelation at the age of 40. For years, he lived a humble life in Mecca as a merchant, known for his honesty and kindness. But it wasn’t until later in life that he was called to his true purpose, to deliver Allah's message as His final Prophet. The fact that he received his mission at 40 emphasizes that purpose isn’t always immediate; sometimes, it comes after years of preparation and personal growth. His story encourages us to remain patient and trust that our own purpose will reveal itself in time.

Another example is Abraham Lincoln, who faced repeated failures in his early political career. He lost multiple elections and dealt with deep personal struggles. But his journey was a testament to resilience. His purpose was revealed in due time as he went on to become one of the most respected leaders in history, guiding America through its most turbulent era. Lincoln’s story is a reminder that our setbacks can lead us to our true calling.

These examples remind us that setbacks and waiting periods are part of the journey. Our “place in this world” may come into focus slowly, but it’s worth the wait. Like Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) and other figures, our purpose often arrives exactly when we’re ready to fulfill it.

The Quranic Reminder: You Are Not Created Without Purpose

In the Quran, Allah directly addresses the question of purpose. His words remind us that every soul, no matter how insignificant it might feel, has a reason to be here. Allah’s message provides a reassurance to all of us feeling out of place—that our life’s value goes beyond what we can immediately see. When He asks, “Do you think We have created you purposelessly?” it is to remind us that nothing in His creation is without purpose, including us.

If we feel out of place, this reminder can anchor us in hope. Our presence has a divine purpose. Even in moments of self-doubt, we can trust that our lives are woven into a greater plan. It’s about finding faith that our purpose is real and waiting to be discovered.

How to Find Your Place in This World

It might feel overwhelming to search for our “place in this world.” Sometimes, we expect a grand, immediate revelation, but purpose often comes through small, persistent efforts. Here are a few simple steps to keep in mind:

1. Reflect on Your Strengths: Consider what you’re naturally good at. Often, our strengths are hints toward our unique role in this world.

2. Stay Patient: Just as history’s greatest figures didn’t see their success right away, we too need to remain patient. Purpose takes time to unfold.

3. Stay Connected to Faith: Remember the divine purpose that Allah has set for each of us. His words in the Quran reassure us that we are not meaningless. Staying connected to faith can remind us of our worth in moments of doubt.

4. Embrace Your Journey: Like Lincoln, Edison, or other historical figures, accept that your journey may be filled with challenges. But these obstacles often carve out the exact purpose for which you’re here.

You Are Here for a Reason

We all have moments when we wonder, “Why am I here?” or “What is my place in this world?” But take comfort in knowing that your life’s value is real. The struggles, the questions, the setbacks—all of these are stepping stones toward discovering your unique role on this Earth.

Our place in this world isn’t always immediately clear, but Allah assures us that we were not created without purpose. If you feel out of place, trust in His divine purpose and keep moving forward. We may not see the bigger picture yet, but every small step takes us closer to realizing our place. You are here for a reason, and with patience and faith, you will find it.

Exploring Peer-e-Kamil: A Profound Journey of Faith, Love, and Transformation

This is the story of faith, the story of heart-break, the story of finding one true love— the cost of finding it. Imama Hashim, a young woman torn between the faith that she has inherited and the faith her friends beleive in, journeys to find the true meaning of religion. Her main concern? Finality of Prophethood with Muhammad Mustafa (S.A.W). 

Why didn't her family believe in the finality of Muhammad (S.A.W)? Who was right: her family, or her friends?

In Peer-e-Kamil, Umera Ahmed crafts an extraordinary tale that transcends mere storytelling, inviting readers into a profound exploration of faith and love. This novel delves deep into the complexities of human existence, revealing that

 “in life, at some time or another we come to a point where all relationships cease—where there is only us and Allah.”

 This pivotal moment of isolation serves as a catalyst for transformation, urging characters to confront their true selves and their connection to the divine. Umera Ahmed masterfully illustrates that our true worth lies not in worldly connections but in the unwavering bond with faith.

 The Journey of Salar and Imama

As the story unfolds, we witness Imama getting close to Jalal Ahmed, a man she believes would be her perfect match because she comes across him while he was busy reciting the praise of Prophet Muhammad (S.A.W).

“To him who begs for a drop, you grant the seas.” 

She immediately falls in love with him, believing that a man so devoted to the Prophet could be her potential mate. Meanwhile, we come across another man, Salaar Sikander, he appears a total freak. Genius of a man that he is, he behaves like a lunatic sometimes, trying to kill himself to experience the depth of pain, to get the answer to the question of what comes after pain. Imama totally hates him for his non-religious ways. She helps save the life of Salaar, but only for her brother's sake whom she so lovingly admires. Both Salaar and Imama are like the two opposite poles, it seems initially that they can never be on the same page, but, life has other plans. Both of them face severe trials only to find that all this while they were searching for eachother, unknowingly.

“Imama had in her palm a tiny firefly of guidance, and in the burst of it's light, she had made her way through every dark alley of life without ever stumbling”

Imama, who holds “a tiny firefly of guidance,” embodies the idea that even the smallest flicker of faith can illuminate the darkest paths, leading to remarkable transformation. This metaphor is powerful, emphasizing how guidance, no matter how subtle, can lead individuals through their struggles and into the light of understanding.

The Depth of Love in Peer-e-Kamil

The exploration of love in Peer-e-Kamil is equally compelling and multifaceted. Salar's love for Imama transcends mere desire; it is pure, unconditional, and imbued with a sense of spiritual depth. His heartfelt declaration, 

“She is beyond me, but my love is pure, not base desire,”

reveals a love that shapes his identity and purpose. In Peer-e-Kamil, Umera Ahmed emphasizes that love is a powerful force that can inspire individuals to rise above their circumstances, embrace the transformation that comes from true affection, and seek a deeper connection with the divine. This transformative love becomes a beacon, guiding them through life’s challenges and encouraging personal growth.

 The Role of Pain and Suffering

Umera Ahmed does not shy away from depicting the pain that often accompanies faith and love. The characters endure significant struggles, highlighting the notion that transformation often arises from the crucible of pain. As Imama replies to the questions of Salaar poignantly, 

“What is next to ecstasy? Pain. What is next to pain? Nothingness. What is next to nothingness? Hell.”

 This exploration of suffering adds profound depth to the characters’ journeys, reminding us that true transformation often emerges from the darkest moments of our lives. Imama's one true dream of becoming a doctor could never get accomplished because of her fight for spiritual liberty. Salaar gets abandoned in a jungle, all by himself; but they never give up. Their sincerity leads to self-discovery. Through their struggles, both Salar and Imama illustrate how faith can illuminate the darkest moments, guiding them toward healing, understanding, and renewed purpose.

 The Solace of Faith in Loneliness

Isolation and loneliness are recurring themes in Peer-e-Kamil, poignantly expressed in Salar’s heartfelt words:

 “You have been my savior in my loneliness. Were it not for you, I would have been dead.”

 This profound sentiment resonates deeply with readers who understand that faith and love can fill the void during times of solitude. Umera Ahmed skillfully conveys that even in isolation, the presence of Allah can offer solace, leading to a powerful transformation of the soul. This theme of finding strength in faith during moments of loneliness is particularly relevant today, as many struggle to find meaning and connection in an increasingly isolating world. Dr Sibt- e- Ali plays a very important role here. He guides both of them towards a better life, supporting them throughout thick and thins.

We get to know how much our support matters to those who have lost direction in life. If elders take responsibility of caring and directing the youngers, miracles could happen.

The Everyday Impact of Faith

Throughout Peer-e-Kamil, the concept of faith is intricately woven into the fabric of daily life, illustrating how it can inspire transformation in the most mundane circumstances. Ahmed portrays faith as a source of strength, guiding her characters through their trials. For instance, when darkness looms, Ahmed writes, 

“When darkness, layer by layer, descends on the soul, your light then does with greater brilliance glow.”

 This statement reinforces the idea that faith can shine brighter in times of despair, providing hope and illumination to those who seek it. In a heartfelt prayer, Salaar says—

“It was not I who gave her place in my emotions, in my heart — it was You who put her there. Why have you so filled my heart with love for her that even though I stand in Your presence, I miss her? Why have you made me so helpless that I have no power over my existence? I am that being who was created with all these fallings. I am that being who has no guide but You. And that woman— she stands at every turn that my life takes, preventing me from making any move, going ahead. Either completely erase her from my heart, take away my love for her, or grant her to me.”

Salaar does not give up on her and he seeks divine intervention to rest his case. From the faithless man he was, Salaar gets completely transformed into a man of immense faith, with a heart filled with love and honor for a woman who might not matter to her family much, who might not be so respected in the society she lived once, but for him she is in the highest regards. 

It is a very courageous move to love someone who holds no place in the society. It takes selflessness, true wisdom, and an insightful personality. Salaar becomes the epitome of all these qualities.

Growth Through Adversity

As the narrative progresses, readers are drawn into a world where every challenge becomes an opportunity for transformation. Salar and Imama’s paths are fraught with obstacles, yet their unwavering faith propels them forward. They learn that each setback is not an end but rather a stepping stone toward personal and spiritual growth. Umera Ahmed’s portrayal of faith as a transformative force encourages readers to reflect on their own lives, prompting them to consider how love and faith can guide them through life’s uncertainties.

The Complexity of Relationships

The relationships in Peer-e-Kamil are richly developed, revealing the complexities of human emotions. The connection between Salar and Imama is particularly striking; their relationship evolves from one of deep hatred to a profound partnership built on mutual respect and understanding. Salar’s acknowledgment of Imama's significance in his life encapsulates the essence of love when he says, 

“No, I need to know nothing. Nothing at all. That you are before me is enough. That you are here is enough. In any case, what can a man like me ask anyone.” 

Salaar is so supportive for her, and so trusting of her that he denies when Imama asks him if he wants to know what she has been doing all these years. This sentiment underscores the importance of supportive relationships in the journey of transformation. The bonds we form with others can significantly impact our faith and our ability to navigate the challenges of life.

A Message of Hope and Resilience

In the closing chapters of Peer-e-Kamil, Umera Ahmed offers a powerful message of hope and resilience. She beautifully articulates that even when darkness, layer by layer, descends on the soul, the light of faith does with greater brilliance glow. Through Imama and Salar’s journeys, we learn that faith and love have the power to illuminate even the darkest paths, inspiring transformation in ways we never thought possible. This overarching theme resonates deeply with readers, serving as a reminder that in the face of adversity, the strength found in faith and love can lead to profound and lasting change.

Imama leaves her family because she believes in the finality of Prophethood with Muhammad Mustafa (S.A.W), and Salaar rejects the ways of high society, starts to lead a very humble life, making donations with the money he has. Both find their true purpose in service of Allah. Beyond the world of hypocrisy, both of them become sincere devotees of Allah.

The Lasting Impact of Peer-e-Kamil

In conclusion, Peer-e-Kamil by Umera Ahmed is more than just a story; it is an exploration of the essence of faith, love, and transformation. As readers navigate the intricate emotions and spiritual awakenings of the characters, they are invited to reflect on their own journeys and the power of these elements in shaping their lives. Umera Ahmed’s remarkable ability to intertwine faith, love, and the quest for meaning makes Peer-e-Kamil a timeless classic that continues to inspire readers to seek their own paths of transformation through faith and love.

"I Know That I Ruined Your Life" - A Soulful Dive into Love, Loss, and Redemption

Are you ready to dive deep into a poem that’s not just about heartbreak but about the human struggle with guilt, forgiveness, and ultimately, self-discovery? "I Know That I Ruined Your Life" is a poem that reads like a confession, an apology, and a spiritual reflection all wrapped in one. If you've ever been caught in the painful paradox of causing hurt to someone you deeply care about, this piece is for you.

Let’s explore its poignant lines, unpacking the emotions that weave a complex tapestry of regret, love, and redemption.

I know that I ruined your life,

And If I apologise, it won't suffice.

Although it's me who has left you,

I am reliving the pain of separation twice.

For I know all that you're going through,

I have, once, walked in your shoes.

My smiling angel, I have always told you,

Again I am telling you this,

That the bereavement of getting hurt

Is  lesser than the pain of hurting.

I have broken something

I can never fix.

And this truth shall haunt me

For the rest of my life,

That a beautiful soul that cared for me

Has, night and day, agonized.

That I was the reason

The ocean of tears flew.

Even though willing

I couldn't be merciful to you.

Who knew?

That a guileless man could get hurt

At the hands of a person

Whom he so blindingly trusted.

The culprit here is more sorry than the victim.

I want you to know 

That I am not a monster,

I told you I give up on things,

And that I had finally given up.

You said there's no such thing

for people who truly love.

Perhaps, now you'll understand,

Circumstances have the ability to mold you;

To make you jerk away the hands,

That are trying to hold you.

I am happy that you moved on from me,

That you're seeing other colors of life.

But I can't shake the feeling from me,

That you think I was twisted,

That you finally hate me.

Before parting the ways

I made you promise to never despise me.

In that moment you did what you always do,

Comply with me.

But now that the whirlpool has taken you in.

You have forgotten your promise.

However unjust a person I might be

I have always dared,

I still dare to demand from you,

To accept my apology.

If it is so difficult for you to listen,

To rest my case without even hearing,

Then you were never as good as you claimed

You are as much twisted, as much tamed.

Let me make it easy for you

by telling you, I have been burning in fire of agony.

Such an agony that you'll never experience.

Gray clouds were over my head long before I'd met you.

You were delusional to think you could push the clouds away.

And when you were trying to fix me,

Someone accepted me in this twisted way.

I saw the same gray clouds over their head,

Those that were hovering on me.

It was not a chance, it was an epiphany,

I finally understood my position, my place.

I finally understood that I am needed.

I am a herb , a medicine, a spiritual aid,

For someone who understands only bitter tastes.

I might have fallen from grace

But I am being a source of happiness

For those who were surrendering.

That's when I changed my path from yours,

Because I wanted to change the condition

Of those like me.

People whose survival was threatened

By the weight of the boulder they were carrying.

I knew you'd be in a lot of pain

But you'll survive, you always do.

You don't need me babe

Let me be with those who do.

I am the daughter of Adam,

My nature is to make mistakes.

But I am a follower of Jesus too,

So I bleed for other's pain.

I have never hated you,

Nor will I do.

But even if after hearing my plea 

If this is what you want…

Then God bless you.

1. The Apology That’s Never Enough

"I know that I ruined your life,

And if I apologize, it won’t suffice"

Right from the beginning, the speaker acknowledges a deeply personal pain: the understanding that sometimes, even a sincere apology doesn’t heal a wound. How often have we experienced this in our own lives? This line resonates with anyone who’s ever wished that saying “I’m sorry” could erase past mistakes but knows it never quite does.

2. Living the Pain Twice Over

"Although it’s me who has left you,

I am reliving the pain of separation twice."

This stanza brings to light the double-edged nature of guilt. Here, the speaker experiences not only the pain of causing separation but also a reflective suffering—a punishment the speaker believes they deserve. It reminds us that leaving someone can sometimes hurt the one who leaves just as much as the one left behind.

3. Empathy from Shared Experiences

"I know all that you’re going through,

I have, once, walked in your shoes."

The speaker’s empathy here is deeply resonant. They’ve "walked in the shoes" of their past partner, understanding and sharing their pain on a personal level. This line hits home because it expresses the concept of shared emotional experience, reminding us that true empathy is born from a place of personal understanding.

4. The Burden of Hurt and Guilt

"I have broken something

I can never fix."

In these lines, the poem speaks to an almost universal feeling of helplessness—where the pain caused is so profound that no act or gesture can truly repair it. This profound realization of irreversibility adds a layer of remorse, as the speaker reflects on their role in causing the irreversible. It’s a heavy burden, and one many can relate to.

5. The Twist of Mutual Hurt

"The bereavement of getting hurt

Is lesser than the pain of hurting."

Here, the speaker reflects on a unique and often overlooked truth: hurting someone you love can be more agonizing than being hurt. This flips our usual understanding of heartbreak, acknowledging that sometimes, the “culprit” in a relationship suffers as deeply as the “victim.”

6. Redemption in Acceptance

"Let me be with those who do [need me].

I am the daughter of Adam, my nature is to make mistakes,

But I am a follower of Jesus too,

So I bleed for other’s pain."

This part of the poem is where the speaker finds their own redemption. They recognize that, flawed as they are, they have a purpose—perhaps even a calling—to bring comfort to others like them. The biblical references here add a layer of spirituality and introspection, suggesting a journey not only through guilt but also toward purpose and self-acceptance. The speaker finds solace in helping others, in being “needed” by those who understand their flaws.

7. A Complex Goodbye

"You don’t need me, babe,

Let me be with those who do."

In this conclusion, there’s a bittersweet recognition that, sometimes, walking away is the kindest thing we can do. The speaker realizes that staying may only cause more harm, and with this acceptance, they find the courage to let go. It’s a farewell that’s more compassionate than sorrowful, expressing a unique kind of love.

Why "I Know That I Ruined Your Life" is a Poetic Masterpiece

This poem is a profound exploration of the human heart. It doesn’t shy away from uncomfortable truths but instead brings them to light, offering readers a chance to reflect on their own experiences with love, loss, guilt, and redemption. The themes resonate universally, making it a piece that’s not only beautiful to read but deeply relatable.

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